He is blessing us despite ourselves

God ever been blessed despite yourself?

God is blowing my mind and faith right now in only a way he can. We royally messed up last weekend. Bad. We didn't trust God to provide something and we took it upon ourselves to decide a way. I mentioned some of it here. In the days since then God has blessed us in the form of 2 dear friends. One even though she knew about the other.

I am so blown away by God.

I am blown way by how even though we asked for forgiveness and we know that we have been forgiven God is still providing ways for us to make up for our mistake and then some. I don't understand why? We don't deserve it.

It's just hitting me... This is a prime example of God giving us his Son to die for our sins. We have blown it. Yet even though we have asked for forgiveness he sent Jesus to insure we were covered 110%. Our debt is paid and we are forgiven, and we have the glorious life abundantly because of it.

He saved us despite ourselves. Spiritually and for us in this moment... literally. We don't deserve what he is doing right now. We are so grateful and were so grateful for the lesson. For the growth. For the forgiveness. How to wrap our heads around it all? Even though we totally disobeyed and had so little to give like we should have had he is still blessing us.

Why am I sharing this? Because even though I've always known it and times in my life felt it, it's hitting harder again... God loves us no matter what we have done. No matter how we have disobeyed him... he forgives... he blesses... he loves! All of it. He cares about your heart and where the lesson brings you. Growing your faith. He will always do everything to show you he is still here for you no matter what you think.

I felt the whole time we have ruined everything. That what we did was unforgivable and irreversible. God has gone above and beyond to show me that isn't the case and that he still loves us. That his mercies are new everyday and that he is still and always will be right here with us. Leading the way of his will.

Lord, 

Thank you so much for your blessings even though we don't deserve them. The lesson, growth, humility, faith, and love you are teaching this heart of mine is something deeper than I ever imagined. Lord, I am so sorry for what we did. For disobeying you. I know you have forgiven us yet Lord you still set out to bless us. Above and beyond what we messed up. Lord, I don't fully understand why but I am grateful. You are amazing. You will forever be praised. Please Lord I ask please bless those who you have used to bless us 10 fold for their faithfulness to listen to you. I am overwhelmed, Lord. Thank you. From the wholeness of our hearts. Thank you. I feel we aren't worthy but even as I type those words I hear your voice reminding me I am an heir in your Kingdom. Thank you, Lord!

 In your most precious matchless name, Amen.