I WILL

Life is plain hard!! I don't know what rut I am in lately but it stinks. If it's not one thing it's another.

What gives?!

Why is it that right when I think we are finally over the hump that seems to have been in our face for 9 years we slide all the way to the bottom again... And then some... Ugh why!!??

Trying so hard to be where we are supposed to be, doing what we are supposed, and trying not to get stuck on the wrong "topic" when pursuing God for his direction in our lives, but here we are again... feeling beat up and defeated. Yes, the narrow road is hard. Yes, he is our strength and sufficient for our weakness. I guess I am just venting over the struggle... yet again at the breaking point.

But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. 
2 Corinthians 12:9

We have to keep at the death crawl, giving our best till we reach the goal line. I know this. In my heart. I am trying so hard to not let my fear clobber my faith, but right now in this moment it's easier said than done.

For those super awesome with movie trivia... yes, I am using lines from Facing the Giants. It's a staple movie in our household. Refreshing for the soul per-say of getting our eyes back on the prize... God himself. Yes, either way we will praise him. If we win or lose.

With that being said instead of focusing on what is really bothering me and beating me up right now I shall praise him no matter what.

I WILL praise him for the roof over our heads that is safer than where we were. 

I WILL praise him that even though we desperately need to go grocery shopping we have money in our wallets to do so. 

I WILL praise him that even though not much school is being accomplished right now learning and bonding is still taking place. 

I WILL praise him for our one vehicle. 

I WILL praise him for the new job that provides my husband to be more available for us now. 

I WILL praise him for my children. 

I WILL praise him for our health. 

I WILL praise him for his church and body of Christ he has brought us to. 

I WILL praise him FOR HIM. 

That feels so much better to my soul now. I need to remember all will work to the glory of him. The road will always be hard and I will always be yearning for those triumphant sounds from the clouds. Until then I need to hold fast and keep running the race. Even though some days are soooooo much harder than others.