This season I am in is hard. Plain ole hard.
It's confusing and frustrating and I feel like I am skinning my knees from falling every time I try standing up. I don't understand what is going on. It all seems so unfair. God wants to hear our cries. Our hurt. Our discomfort Right?
Well I am screaming!! I am crying!!
I want to know why!!??
I want to know when!!??
I just want to know... anything!!
I need to feel something. Some direction. Some hope. Something.
This dry, rocky, sandy, windy... well you get the point... season I am in right now is so utterly difficult. Simple wishes. Simple dreams. That's all we have.
So I continue to cry, scream, and fall to my knees asking...
Why!!!!????? When!!!!????
I really don't understand.
3 comments:
I love you, Lynds.
I love you too!!
Hang on, Lynds! I am here to tell you that God can see you through whatever it is that you are facing right now.
After my Dad died back in March, I have went through over 2 1/2 months of the darkest days and depression of my life. I grieved, and I grieved. I prayed and cried and begged for help from God. I felt forsaken. I thought He had left me, because why else would He take my dad then leave me in the largest, deepest valley of my life?
My friend, who is also a medical professional, felt I needed to seek professional help for my depression and grief.
But you know, I am feeling like I'm finally coming out of that valley of darkness. I know that my dad is not suffering anymore and he is in Heaven. I have realized that God never left me and He was even holding my hand through it, but it was a trial that I had to go through, and I'm not even sure why, but I do know that on the other side of this valley, there is some bright times ahead. So hold on and know that weeping may endure for the night, but joy is going to come in the morning!
(hugs)
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