It's just been one of THOSE days.

Oh man the first day back to school has taken a toll on me. I would so be lying if I said it didn't.

Today was rough.

Really rough.

It started out nice. It tricked me though I have decided!

Down right sugar-coated sweetness this morning melted away like some of our ice outside to reveal the sour middle that was awaiting me this afternoon. I have to be honest I am massively glad today is over. Kids are nicely tucked into their beds... where even that was a struggle today.

I can't however blame all of today's troubles on my precious children. Oh no! That wonderful blame points directly at myself and my allowance of Satan's devious hand on my attitude. My words. My actions. He most certainly was listening when I was asking God to be help me watch those areas of my life that I am shameful exist and oh do they. I loathe them and yet it seems the more I loathe and try the more they rear their nasty little heads.

I have come to realize though why exactly it is they appear fiercer each time. It's simply because I think I can win this battle with Satan alone. There I said right out loud in black and white. I think I can win against him alone!

Mind over matter right?

WRONG!!!!

I have got to learn to scoot my tush right on out of the pilot seat because I know that this attitude and words of mine will only get worse if I continue to sit there. So here I am scooting the heck out of the way so the real Captain in charge can kick some Satan tail!

I don't know why this is a lesson I seem to constantly have on repeat but I do. I sure hope that God resumes his role here in his rightful spot as pilot soon so we can conquer this once and for all... together... with him leading the charge.

Why am I sharing this oh so glorious side of myself with you all????

EASY... sharing my wonderful downside and "sharing it out loud" not only loosens Satan's hold on me, but it also is a great way for all of you to help hold me accountable.

So please... please hold me accountable. Help me walk this road to being the better wife, mother, daughter of the King that God wants me to be. Help me work on my attitude. My words and my actions. They need some serious help. They really do, and I know God is working on them. I have just got to keep out of his way and out of his seat! I have no place being pilot...

No honestly I drive us far off course every time!

Thank God that everyday is a new day...

Here is to staying out of the pilot seat and following only the directions of the rightful pilot!

{There is a verse I wanted to end with but for the life of me I can not locate the one I had in mind. Once I find it though I will most certainly add it. :( }