I really need to understand more why I snap. Snap like a dry dead branch under the running feet of a child on the dry forest floor. Why one minute I am hopeful and full of no fear and the next second something rubs me the wrong way and it's all wrong. However in reality it isn't at all. Quite the opposite really. Yet I still continue to snap. Even when my brain is yelling shhhh don't say that... the words continue to flow out like a dam whose walls have crumbled. No sign of stopping the rushing water.
I have come to learn how "painful" days are when I am not able or don't diligently die to self and let God own the day.
Have you ever had that?? A completely off day and you later realize that you didn't die to self and fully let God??
For me it is such a noticeable difference sometimes it's painful. I feel so off and unbalanced. I realize I am putting my hope and basing my reactions and words, tones, and actions of others. Not a fun place to be for me... or those around me.
Just one more thing to add to my list of things to work on...
How about you?? Anything you feel God tugging at your heart to work on?
2 comments:
Actually, I was thinking the exact same thing this morning. Why do I let me self get to those breaking points when I know that if I just let God take controll it would end so much better, but still I snap (as you put it). Sounds like your a lot like me...
But we're not the only ones. I often read Psalms and think that I am David made over. One minute God is the best thing ever and He otally has my back adn the next He is so far away. Not really, but you know what I mean i'm sure.
:) I completely know what you mean!!
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