The Love Dare

(For those who are unsure of what this dare is... Here is where you can find information about The Love Dare)
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So I am taking the plunge if you will. I am not going to sit back and wonder any longer why my husband's copy of The Love Dare is collecting dust when my own copy is doing the very same thing.

So Tuesday I dusted it off and re-read Day 1. Because of course that is only as far as I have made it in the past.

Day 1's dare...

Speak kindly.

I think I did really well with Day 1.

As in Tuesday only...

Today however I failed miserably. Over something entirely ridiculous or course!

Let me backtrack some... Yesterday morning my husband was leaving for work and had forgotten to grab his cell phone. I went back inside and grabbed it for him. It's a brand new touch screen cell phone. Less then 40 days old. First real nice phones we have ever owned. We dropped it! Of course! The screen didn't crack or anything however it won't "turn on"... Just stays black! The phone works still (as in turns on and off) but since you need the screen to do anything he can't text.... dial.... nothing! He can thankfully however press the call button twice and call me... since I was his last call.

Now for us this is a huge loss. Who cares about the phone I mean really!? But you see this is one of our main lines of communication during the day. We text his entire way to work... shhhh we know sorry, but you see he spends an hour in the car each way to and from work and then 10 hours at work. This talking is vital and precious to us. We also talk through his entire lunch and his entire way home from work... e.v.e.r.y.d.a.y! It didn't used to be like this, but we don't want it to change now that it is.

Losing those communication times devastates me. I looked forward to them. They also came in very handy in case I needed to ask a question that didn't require calling him at work. So when I do get to talk to him I relish in it! Yesterday went ok. Stunk not hearing from him in the morning, but I got to talk to him and lunch and on the way home. So that was very nice. It was a good talk and things were really going good.

Today though was a lot rougher for me. I really missed the texting in the morning. It dawned on me how for granted I took that before. I don't want to take it for granted ever again. I didn't hear from him for hours. No call... no nothing! Now I know some wives don't ever hear from there husband's all day, but I don't like it. So finally an hour or so later then he normally takes his lunch I finally called him. I was very worried as to why he hadn't taken lunch and wanted to know if everything was ok. He told me that he was heading to lunch but when he tried calling me he accidently had called his brother. Since he can't see his screen he didn't realize he had a missed call and it called the last number that showed up... aka brother. So he told me to call him so my number was the last one so he can call me again. I did... 3x!

I misunderstood what he was saying and I was expecting him to a. answer or b. call right back. None of which happened. I was fuming. It was my one time in the day to talk to him. My time with him I guess you could say and I didn't anything. He called me when he got back into his work to tell me his lunch was over and he was back to work now. I came unglued. I felt jipped!! He then further explained he was still talking to his brother and such. I didn't care. I didn't want to hear it. He had ignored me and I was going to make sure he heard how mad I was.

Now after massive reflection I see I was very much in the wrong.

I didn't take the time to fully hear him out about what was going on with his phone and that he was still on the call.

I was selfish and not at all speaking kindly or as today's dare is showing any... patience... kindness... understanding.

I did everything opposite!

I should have listened with excitement at what his brother had to say. They hardly ever talk. I mean ever. I however text with my sister daily. I know how much that hurts him that he doesn't have that kind of relationship with his brother or family, and instead of embracing that with him I shot him down.

I haven't called him yet to reveal to him my revelation because trust me he won't have the right listening ears on while at work. So I wait for another 40 mins or so till he is on his way home and hopefully calls me.

So today's dare was show patience. Failed.

Tomorrow is a new day and pray for succeed to be written next to

Speak Kindly... Love is Patient

Patience... Love is Kind

and tomorrow's dare of Love is not Selfish.

Although with today's dare it does challenge me to "do at least one unexpected gesture as an act of kindness"... I know that when my husband calls tonight he will be expecting the anger in my voice from before. He will be surprised at the warm, welcoming, excited tone he will actually get.

Here's to a better night and tomorrow.