School has been hard this week. The war inside to switch curriculum 12 weeks left in the year or not. I am leaning more of yes cause truly I don't feel like we are really getting places with this year's core to the extent we are "supposed" to be.
Daily devotions tied in with our Financial Peace University classes and life changes God is calling us to you can tell Satan is saying, "SO.... how much are you sticking to all God is calling you to do."
I have news for him... Yes, I came "Unglued" in the worst way today on all 3 kids. This week we have all been battling each other and it only resounds why God is having that book continue to be coming back into my life. However, not only will I continue this path but I will soar through it with the excellence he is so scared of me having.
I have to admit though I am exhausted. Mentally and physically. From it all. Curriculum, budgeting (although I am so proud to say our spending habits have done such a 180 degree difference it's blissful!), parenting, being a wife... all of it.
I know God has this. I am not worried and I know he will renew my strength... I just can not wait for the relief to come. I just would be lying if I ignoring sharing the downs and only the ups. Just one of those moments in parenting and life where it gets tiring. There truly is so much more on my heart that God has been sharing but this was begging to get out and a horrible rendition of a movie is almost down we were watching for school.
I'm hoping that relief is felt this weekend cause the tightness in my chest is tired too.
Sometimes mom, teacher, wife, etc is just plain hard.... Yet God always loves us through our messes!! Love that!!
(On the upside... I may have found our new History curriculum. More prayer is needed for confirmation though... but it feels promising.) I'm grateful for that too.
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