A Door He Open... I Won't Try Closing It

As the sun started to peak over the rooftops, that I have perfect view off since we still have no blinds on our windows *wink*, this morning I was thinking about what today holds for me. It holds the normal daily household chores mixed with a little arithmetic and spelling, I'm sure outdoor play, and this afternoon a newborn photo shoot. It's truthfully the photo shoot that has me thinking the most.

I can hear the comments from friends and family of how "you have nothing to worry about" and all the other encouraging words but truth is I am worried. Very worried. I had the privilege of photographing this adorable family a few weeks ago for their maternity photos. They are such a lovely family that are welcoming another girl to their mix. They now are a family of four.

Their precious daughter was born a week ago yesterday and while I can't wait to get my lens on her I am saddened that I won't have locations to take them to today. They are coming out to my house this time (since I don't have our van today), but I am worried about the lack of backgrounds to use for their pictures. Sure I have my wood fence in my backyard, the top of my bed, the brick side wall of my house, and a window seat but I am not sure how far they would be willing to walk for a different backdrop outdoors.

While thinking about this afternoon I was reminded of my friend's text yesterday. She said she wasn't worried about it at all. Then why am I? I want the best pictures for them possible. Last time we went to two different locations and to me the experience and change of clothes warrants a change of scenery too. You can ask any of my close friends and family my lack of confidence in this line of work is through the roof. I was reminded this morning, as the sun peeked it's how do you do's to me, that if this is a step on a path God wants me to pursue I need to bloom where I am planted with the "nutrients" (ie: equipment/backgrounds) he has equipped me with here and now. I can't keep holding on and holding off for "when I upgrade my camera body" or "I need to schedule around the vehicle" and so forth. While all are perfectly legit I realized this morning God is going to use today to stretch me and make me rely on his talents and his eyes to get the task at hand completed today.

Of course, I wish I had all the fun props and such but God didn't create today for the props to be center. He is allowing the beauty that he created to be singled out and shine brightly today. He will be in charge of the older camera being used and he will be ever present through it all. He is revealing all the big I think I need... I don't. This is a door that he opened for me himself and I have to stop looking for every excuse as to why I can't make today work. I have to try shutting a door only he can or will not close. If I keep looking to close the door and every excuse as to "why it can't be opened" I am going to miss out on the gift that God is placing before me.

His blessing.

I don't want to miss that.

So I resolve to stop over thinking today. He has all the shots and locations in and out of the house picked out. He laid out today special for me and for them and his handiwork will showcase.