Have you ever committed to things in your life you know deep down you should've said no to, but now you are committed and your family is suffering!?
That is our family right now.
It's the worst time in our lives ever. What stinks is it's not even a ton of commitments and some are church related.
What is awful for me is I felt such an uneasy feeling about all of these yes' before the official launch days came. I wanted to pull us all out of all of them but I kept being met with resistance and "come on you should do them." I didn't want to do them. I felt we, as a family, were supposed to say no even though it would stink to miss out. The sad part is we are missing out on what's important... our family connection. Now hold on with the firing squad, yes church commitments are just as important too, but truthfully not for the running the family crazy aspect we are at now. We have though until November for these commitments and I can assure you that if we can't figure out how to work in the rut we are in none of us will survive.
It's not pretty folks.
The anxiousness I feel just thinking about what's coming it isn't worth to me. To my family. I should have stuck to my guns and that small voice saying "you need to say no. It'll be ok." But I didn't. Now we have to live with it for this season. Ugh. There is so much going on even just outside of all of this. Why didn't we learn last semester.
I really wish November was right around the corner. For the sanity of all of us.
2 comments:
Oh Linda... I know how you must be feeling...You are right the family is the most important...but thru this I am sure the family can learn something important....
Oh Bev, You are are so right!! We can and are definitely learning something important. With that we are learning the hard lesson, we never had to learn before, of our limits. Once this season is over we will definitely be looking at things a lot closer than we did this time. And we'll be listening to gut reactions too. ;) Thank you sweetie!
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