Like bad.
If we felt God in a decision, leading to an option to go home... we would. In a heartbeat.
However, we have also been feverishly praying about what to do about where we are at right now. Our current location let alone living situation. What do we do!? Do we save to move? Do we look to buy? Do we stay here? Oh the scenarios seem endless and honestly overwhelming.
This last week though God spoke. He spoke in a way that was "ahh really?" but at the very same time it was refreshing.
Talk about a glorious smack in the face. See, we have been discussing our living situation with idea of "well, how long are we going to live here, and when do you think we will move back?" God has since put a stop to that topic. We have kept the "If it is the Lord's will" part ever present and know that He could decide to move us back, but for right here and now that doesn't seem to be in the cards.
We just need to stop trying to figure that part out ourselves like we have been doing.
He has laid it upon our hearts we may be here for a while. Time unknown. My heart is working on that concept at the same time it has peace. Peace because I know we aren't in the drivers seat anymore. We are walking options he has laid on our hearts and we know he will reveal the final destination in his time. We know how quickly and slowly he can work. We know firsthand how mind blowing both can be.
So, I enter a new frame of mind and peace today. Acceptance and excitement.
God is working for us. He has a plan and we have stepped back and are not taking any steps without his say so. Again. Because we have seemed to have forgotten that and have been trying to decide our future ourselves. Using "If it is the Lord's will" in the wrong context. No longer will that be the case. We are empty and ready for him to fill with his will. Seeking and listening.
As much as that verse above hurt to read and soak in last week I am so grateful for the place it has brought me to. I am so grateful for its ever present perfect timing in my life. The turmoil inside me the days before were horrible. The amazing peace now... no words exist.
God's will and peace... We are listening... Perfection.
Another fantastic reminder came through today... God ROCKS!!! So faithful in his reminders.
"I will instruct you and teach in the way you should go; I will counsel you and watch over you." Psalm 32:8
2 comments:
Love those glorious rays of light shining through the clouds!
Sometimes it seems so hard to just let go and let God...
but I'm so glad that you are feeling peace and excitment today after feeling so homesick. Those "ahhh really?" moments He gives us certainly helps when we listen to them, don't they?
Still praying for you guys, girlie!
Big Hugs,
Marissa
Love your post. I know exactly what you are going thru...we have waited ...to see what God wants for our lives...and he does take HIS time.. The one thing that kept me going is BE STILL AND KNOW THAT I AM GOD!
We have a big change in our life coming...but are still waiting for the details... We sold our house, we have to be out in 3 weeks...we have opportunities...but NOTHING has ben finalized...so we wait and trust and know that whatever HE has will be perfect!
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