Longing for many things... Largely longing for home.
Friends, smiles, and hugs.
Home.
Texts with friends of new things happening in our lives and feeling such a void because they aren't there to share in the moments with us. They are supposed to!
Moving stinks!!
Yes, I said it. I know God had his hand in this big time but this hurts. Those friends are supposed to be there with us in these moments.
The void is big.
Sorry it's not a cheery post today. Just being real.
Today I'm sad.
Today I want to turn back the clocks and be back home laughing and making memories with them. I want to see my kids with their best friends. This isn't fair. We didn't have enough time with them all in person. Life has gotten in the way since moving and we haven't kept in touch much. Exciting life changing moments are happening in their lives and we aren't there to share with them. It hurts!! We are supposed to be. The kids are all supposed to be growing up together.
Growing older and doing life together.
IT'S HOW IT'S SUPPOSED TO BE!
Maybe we will move back someday... Maybe we won't. Only God knows what is going to happen in our lives. He knows the hurt and longing we all feel right now for the friends... the family... we left behind. Even my husband who doesn't make friends easily. The ones he actually could call friends for the first time since high school... real friends... he doesn't have here. He longs to be in their company again. To feel the commodore that doesn't come easily to be filled with their love and friendship again.
This growing pain is hard. It hurts. I've been so tough on the outside with knowing this is where we are supposed to be and I'm trying to wrap my heart around it but I hurt inside. I know it took a while before to feel at home there, but the situation and life was so different them. Turmoil and strife. We don't have either of those now. There is a feeling of yeah God wants us here but this isn't home. Maybe it's because it's all still new I don't know but I really want to be back home today.
Bad.
Bad... Bad...
We are to be doing life together there. We are. It's hitting super hard today that we aren't and I don't like it.
God what is it you have for us here!?
4 comments:
oh...i know, i know. but, regardless of how we feel God does have a plan. in a few months you'll look back and know for certain what He was teaching you. seek Him! :)
love.
My heart breaks for you...I'm sorry that you are hurting!
We are in the same boat. We moved so my hubby could get a full time youth pastor job. We miss our old home, our friends and the community we had with believers. Some days it gets easier, some days it makes us work harder, some days it drags us down. We've been here a year and a half but I'm not sure it'll ever be like "home." I will be praying for you was I pray for us.
Mrs. Jacobson, Thank you so much for stopping by and sharing words of life that I'm not alone. I will absolutely be praying about this season that you are in as well. I will be praying for peace and for the Lord's will as to why to be revealed. Thank you in return for the prayers. God Bless and I pray your day and week are great encouraged. :)
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