Dreams, Desires, and Aspirations

These words are sticking with me tonight and I am not quite sure why. Maybe it is just the kind of mood I am in. Maybe it is jut the thoughtful state I find myself lingering lately. I'm can not put my finger on it.

I can say though lately I have been thinking more about

Dreams... 

What are they?

Do I have some?

Are they for me or my family or maybe a little in between?

Desires...

 Oh yes I have many of those. Both personally and in my role as a wife and mother. After the blow out with my daughter today and the ever rising attitude that seems to have plagued my household as of late it is more on the mother side of things. I desire to be so much more as a mother. Yet I find the more that I think about all that I want to change or new things to do the farther I find myself failing... falling off the path and utter disaster always awaits me. It's so disheartening and repetitive at times. I don't understand it. I need so desperately to find that balance. The balance of temper, voice volume, sternness yet not destructive. Things and paths I don't want to pass down from my childhood to hers. To my boys. My husband and I want to change that course.

To change our legacy!

Oh this is a deep passion of mine. Of my husbands.

Did we have horrible childhoods no I don't think so, but our family lives sadly were more of "today's norm" then we would have carried for. We aim to change that with God's help and we deeply feel that he has etched that so deep into the scripts of our lives it hurts deep when it seems we are missing that mark miserably!

Prayer... deep on our knees crying out prayer... for help and guidance. This is not something I can succeed with on my own and more certainly have failed when I have tried. PRAYER... constant seeking and asking God to lead the way. That is the only way I can change my behavior towards my daughter... my boys. Which in turn I pray will help with the growing childhood attitude that is seeming to be upon us. Yes it's a part of growing up I understand that, but I most certainly can handle the situations better than I have. In turn I pray to help soften the blows for future confrontations.

Aspirations... 

I can't help but think of this word with the word Dreams. Aren't they in turn one and the same? Yet if you look them up in the dictionary one is described as "a hope of achieving something" and the other as "images and thoughts that pass through one's head while asleep".

I group them together yet the 2 words stand out so brilliantly alone in my head. I wonder why? I wonder what I am to do with these words. Is there a difference I must see or seek? Is there a difference with these words I must distinguish and grow from? I don't know.

All I do know is that God has been moving strongly in my household. It is inspiring and so passionate. All I want to do is seek his praises and shout his beautiful glory from the rooftops. I don't know what he is up to. All I know is that I am very happy to be where I am today with

Him... 

My Family... 

My Dreams... 

Desires... 

and 

Aspirations!